I have a lot of stuff going on right now. Unfortunately, I choose not to write about some of it publicly.
My departure from Seattle has been postponed for two years. Somethings have happened to change my departure date and destination, as well as change my life drastically.
I am never going to be the same. I am a different woman than I was last December and this time, there is no going back. I have a few loose ends I need to tie up, but in time my plans are going to all fall into place. I may even achieve a dream or two. I get to become a bee-keeper!
There is only one thing stopping me from writing here instead of at Monsters, and that is The Boy. My goal is not to hurt him, and I know for me, there is no going back. It is not fair for me to keep his key, when I now know for sure, there is no turning back. I love him to pieces, but I am no longer in love with him and can’t live like we lived. I’m so sorry it turned out this way. I guess I’m avoiding his hatred.
The last week I have had SO many realizations about my life, who I was, who I became, where I am going, how they are all me, and have served a purpose. I have found a very deep, personal peace. It started with too much to handle. I broke and it was the best thing to ever happen to me because I changed. It’s not so much even that I “changed”, but I understood.
Knowledge is power.
Love is the answer.









